CLANDESTINE EVOKES REVELATION IN ME

Clandestine (mystery, secret) evokes revelation in me

Sometimes i wonder why and the answer i could not avoid hearing WHY NOT!!!!
Although we all have our stories to narrate, we like making some changes to make it sound interesting or appealing. My life is differentiated by own emotions and me. Times i am surprised with all the new alien emotions, I come across we all do.. We are never aware of things until we experience it. Here by I write two of which tend to be all of us, gone through it, familiar with unhappiness, expecting joy, doubting your own beliefs etc

Pain in letting go: Years of knowing you, I failed to understand what is it that we needed or lacked, to be together. Constant search of lost emotion or feeling left me wounded and hurt. One thing I realized lot of times we battle on reasons which essentially do not reveal the purpose of existence and need of this one person in our lives. I squandered, we wasted our “discussions” on trivial matters but mainly I needed you, because I needed a friend who could listen to me without being pejorative (judgmental). Pain of letting go a friend is a scar to your confidence and well-being. Friends come in different forms/Christmas gifts wrapped with full of surprises and glee.  In terms of spouses, parents, people you know for long time, we waste our time and energy in search  of magic but always fail to understand magic is in you but it’s time to use your wand to revive the moments. It is as refreshing as visiting your old food hangouts, reading your old novels, eating your old favorite chocolate. All of those which vanished in time.

Happiness in abundance: You are at ease, you are at peace and happiest. Living a life is with you, moment you feel this you should know you are not wrong or mistaken. Cry which makes you believe you cannot smile without this person’s presence. Love and all that jazz!!!! You feel it, and you have hunger for more. With one person you feel shielded by their affection and not by rules to stay happy. Accepting life is not always bed of roses, when we get hurt you need somebody with you to feel the pain and to release you from it. Being oblivious, when not needed and feel loved when you most need it. Being with you, the way it was planned or should be does not just seem a dream, feels real. Fights, arguments, unhappiness, failed expectations are inevitable but moments you still feel you hope to have that one cup of tea with this person and relax, certainly a “needed” relation. Someone you are annoyed about and also know you cannot have contented happiness without. These are in any forms and shapes :-) folks, friend, spouses (lucky ones). Trick is not to expect from someone since the norm says you should. And definitely admitting to the fact , this one person is “your” person even after all the mishaps , you like tolerating him/her. 

                    You cannot wait for "perfect moments" , take your moments and make it perfect!!!!
You may not realize it, but the fun in your life may be getting chipped away little by little. Hold tight to the things that give you passion and purpose in life. 


Love
Megs

I used to like my biryani much spicy…..

How is it going to be if we bump into our ex-boyfriends/girlfriends? Is it thrilling, nice, happy or worst to have experienced. We talk, talk so much about how well we have moved on from our past but have we really? I would not like to take the credit from those who really made an attempt to let go and find themselves at best place now. It seems certain they had valid points to quit. My best friend says he hates to hear unnecessary details from his ex-girlfriend ( in his mind; I have tolerated enough of your likes and dislikes , time to concentrate on mine).  

When you think of it now, life then was like a food served from best of chef and to try something different, with all the right/”let’s try this” ingredients he invented a bad dish!

I think like we categorize food, I can as well relate the kinds to group of people who have or tried moving on!!!!

Veg “Ball” Manchurian: They like it simple, just one dish and round. Life for them is one big circle. The obvious group of people who conveniently fell in love thinking this would be simple and then marriage, which of course did not happen. When they meet their exes while shopping in a huge super market and you are carrying your baby in one hand and groceries on the other, You truly want to drop everything down, all that you are holding!!!! Or hide your kid!!!! But since you guys like veg “ball” Manchurian you will exchange some haayeees and baaayees , “long time where were you ???. See you later some time we will surely catch up “. This again never happens. Whole drive home they relive their past and sudden one slap on your cheek, yeah your baby boy saying appa/ amma…. . Not that they like it this way they are bored/ indolent to give it a try. They still remember her/his favorite restaurant and every time you visit this only restaurant “accidentally”/”purposefully” (Phut[sound of music])!!!! Comes the slap. They never can or maybe want to move on , they like to tread on the same path.

Andra “Spicy” Biryani: They like it with all kinds of masalas, pungent, obnoxious, intolerant spices. The “I dumped her/him crowd”. Most confident, unreasonably proud set of humans. When they wanted it , it was the battle they won but when they lost him/her it was a defeat or failure . None of the biryanis they have tasted, consumed for months now seems spicier. When you happen to meet her/him clearly in one of the Nandini restaurants you know for the fact you have to behave (insane fake act) of being “happiest” . You are relishing every spoon of this dish, you are mouthful and she/he walking towards you , you want to puke this out or choke to death as clueless/extremely delighted you seem she/he says “hi” How have you been?, By the way this is my fiance!

You swallow the food in the mouth and the fact you just heard then say “congratzzz”. She/he leaves, you turn to your friend and say after such long time I had amazing biryani today. I never really liked him/her anyway!!!!!.

Our all-time favorite “Masala Dosa”:   Right set of mass who truly made an attempt to move on , with certain reasons and over the time have accepted it was only for good and now they see why because there is more room for masala dosas anytime , anywhere. Set of people who have always admired the art of food making , preparations and loved the aroma of masala dosa. Typically, I mean they loved, there was indeed happiness somewhere although it failed that still did not kill their purpose to continue to lead a blissful life with or without. Rarest of all existence!!!! Somewhere you are appreciating the idea of having one more Masala Dosa and your ex walks in to the counter to order , you say hi and she/he says hi and you get lost in the thoughts of how awesomely you would relish the dosa. While your much awaited dosa is being made you talk about here and there stuffs. And you take your only best, needed friend dosa for now, bid goodbye. Now the remarkable part is your ex-boyfriend/girl friend is gawking at you abusing her/his fate why did I say goodbye to him/her. With this chutney this dosa becomes even yummier….

Sometimes I do feel we all like bumping into our ex-boyfriend/girlfriend accidentally or hunt them down just to let them know how happily one have survived. All our tastes changes, routine, likes changes over the time. We all move on consciously, forcefully but love for anything new never really changes. I used to like my biryani much spicy but now I have started to eat it with less spice or adjust it with raitha!!!!

Love

Megz

Good food and a mug of beer!!!!!

If they do not know what women want, do we know what men want really?

Good food and a mug of beer!!!!!

As simple as the answer seems its equally traumatic to convince them what you offer is “good food”, and probe them for a Friday candle light dinner , their convenient preference is to sit at home, with bunch of crazy friends, cigarette and mug of beer. Let’s not focus on their topic of discussion!!!!!

Now it’s been ages, and men still feel they do not know the women in their lives. Is it because women are mysterious or men are too bored to find out … Here are some of them I came across, met and friends with ..

Not so Emotional type (ESPN in person): Set of boys, who never knew they were born with some emotions. Who assumed they are here to feel full filled and satisfied by watching their favorite team win all the games. While they are engrossed watching their team loose, kindly do not ask them questions.

Scenario A:

Excited Wife: Baby (use of this word is tricky, because she only wants to hear “good” stuffs about herself), Do you think I look fat.

Tensed husband: Observes 2 minutes silence and this look ( a homeless dog, looking for family and support), He doesn’t answer, he is watching his team loose that last wicket and here he lost his only hope of having some good s** tonight.

Very emotional type (A yash raj movie): Set of men, who always knew what they wanted and achieve, all they desired was “a great happy family, living even more happily after”. He fell in love in college and that ended there. All disheartened he hounds for love and love yet again. He grabs this very opportunity to say I love you and next date he has made plans of marriage and kids. Now that he is married “happily” there is still something missing in his life. Voila surprisingly its love again, Wife is not the women he loved. Shockingly, things seem pretty normal and he hates it. These need some drama, drama all the time.

Scenario B:

SRK of the first order (filmy husband): I wish we could go to this exotic location….sing, dance, talk and eat best of cuisines.

Equally frustrated wife: Well, before that could you change your baby’s diaper while I finish watching this episode of soap serial. Hero of this serial is back, his rebirth.

Well balanced type (National Geographic, Discovery channel by nature): He knows it all. Says the right word, or prefer not to say at all. Set of guys who can make tea for you when you badly need it and simultaneously say they can’t join you for your party since he reluctantantly (undisclosed emotion “desperately”) committed to his friend’s bachelor party. Now that he has said yes he has to go. For the record they are sorted of all, very few left, endangered species.

Scenario C:

Endangered Species walking towards his girlfriend: Sweetheart I made ginger tea only for you, you must be really exhausted after a day’s work. 

Very happy, slightly suspicious look girlfriend: (Oh.. I know he is not joining me to the party today), How sweet baby I needed this so badly

Boy: (he takes his move slowly, steadily) How was your day, All’s well?

Girl (now a bit more suspicious): Worst.. really bad.. you know what that jackass told me to send the report in half an hour. I have taken 3 days to get the data and now how on earth will I be able to make report in such shore time. And….

Before she could continue, he knew this conversation today will take longer time than usual. 

Boy: You know what just forget it “you” go and have fun today, “you” have a party. I will help you choose the finest of your clothes and you will look absolutely haaat!!!(Hot).

Girl: (wait.. wait… you go????): Yeah , I think I should by the way aren’t you gonna join me?

Well… the plan is successful. He isn’t joining her and she is happy too(well, she got her ginger tea when needed). These set of guys simply make you feel, they won your interest after ages of battle in convincing you. And rest of your life you feel they deserve all the good.

A born wannabe (po** star): Lots of them, major percentage of guy fantasies his only alternate profession would be to star in a p*** movie. He assumes he knows how and when, what not to do.

Disclaimer: Women, kindly stay away from them, you have no future here.

Scenario D:

Walking , talking “wannabe” there!!!!: Hey beauuuutiiipuuulll, Wanna come for a long drive this weekend?

Silly, vulnerable girl: (Screaming, hooting, cheering, jumping he is asking me out!!!!!, thank god I am living.. thank god that sleeping pill did not kill me last night) Yeah ,Why not .

They met, they drove. What happened is ,only his talks about himself. Brag, flaunt, and brag more.

Set of guys who assure they dated at least 5 women and he could not find true love in any of them and he feels you are his “present” true love. Well, those 5 women literally kicked him out of their lives. It’s easy to find them, very simple to judge who they really are. Look at them carefully they carry a board on their head which says “please take me seriously”.

Well, I almost know what really men want.

Good food and a mug of beer and most importantly lots of love!!!!

Thanks to all the “men” in my life!!!!

Cheers

Megs